Am I crazy or just in love?

So me and Ashleigh took like a day apart Friday, me & Samuel spent the entire today together.  It was really nice just spending time w my baby by myself.  But then we went over to Ashleigh's that night & ended up staying the night.  I mean I can't figure out am I doing it right this time by not giving up and continuing to try to work things out or am I doing it wrong by staying when I really need to just move on?  That is what is so hard to figure out....I mean it's like that fork in the road and you have to decide what way do I need to go.  Right or left?  Well we did have a pretty good weekend together which I guess keeps me going and gives me hope.  I guess if I was really honest then I would say that I really just want to get through Christmas and then see where we should go from there.  I mean who wants to break up right before the holidays?  Not too fun.  I know that I need to make a lot of changes in my life.  It's been over a year since I've been in this house and I haven't accomplished shit.  Well maybe a little I guess, I got Samuel in a great school this year, I stop partying so much & got certain "medicine" problems under control.  But I mean in the scheme of things I don't feel like I've done shit.  There is so much more than I want & need to do with my life.  I'm over complaining about it, I'm over wining about it, I just need to get OFF MY ASS and DO something!  In August I'm going to start the Medical Assistant program at FCCJ and then in 10 months I will be able to get a decent job.  Then I want to go back and do the nursing program.  I would just go straight to the nursing program but I want to make sure that I'm in a job before Oct 2013 comes and I'm not getting the amount of $$ that I'm getting now a month.  So that's my plan, I'd like to work in neonatal, I love babies so I think I would really enjoy that.  I still would love to work in fashion, that will always be my dream. But I realize now that I need to be more practical, although practical is not very fun it's just part of growing up.  I have to get a career, a good job that is going to support me & my son.  Well back to the grind.....Almost Christmas and I still have a few presents to get.  Well hope you guys all have a Merry Christmas! Till next time, ♥Brandy